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Anthony @Ducksen

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Posted by Ducksen - December 1st, 2023


Slop. What defines it? Well, to me, it's something that's more unoriginal than not, and it's something that was not made out of passion, but to meet a quota. Team Fortress 2 SFM that tells its own story for like 30 minutes? Not slop. Skibidi Toilet Pizza Tower Screaming Meme? I'm inclined to call that slop.


I've been lost and stumbling about artistically for, like, 3 years now. I have been a slop manufacturer.


I don't have anyone to blame other than myself, really - I was a fool to create with the sole intent of profiting off of the creations of others. I let social pressure get to me, I verbatim followed what others told me to do instead of doing what I wanted to do, and that's where my failure has come as an artist in these recent years.


But I do believe I am finally starting to grow some balls and do what I want to do. I'm ready to be a broke bitchless loser living with my parents into my mid to late 20s, if that's what it takes to make something of substance instead of feeding the machine I so vehemently despise.


Thank you to everyone on Newgrounds for doing what you want to do, and so proudly doing it. In an age of cynicism, where everyone thinks about the bag first and not what they're making, it is so refreshing to see people making shit just because they want to make something good.


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Posted by Ducksen - July 30th, 2023


I've been in a pretty privileged position to have so many views on a lot of my cartoons on Youtube, but something hit me last month when I reached a new peak. I looked at me getting 4 million views in 2 days and I just felt really empty, and I didn't understand why!! I'm doing my own thing and I'm succeeding from it, so why didn't I feel anything?! Why wasn't I jumping for joy?!


Well, maybe it's because I wasn't doing what I wanted to do, and I recognized it subconsciously. I'm a 22 year old man making vertical format short animations about flavor of the month trends. And I do try to hand pick only topics I enjoy personally - Pizza Tower, for example, is something I genuinely enjoyed - but this still doesn't feel like something I want to do with my life.


And so, I've been on a journey this past month trying to figure out what I genuinely want to do. What would I do even if people said it was a bad idea? What sort of project would I go through hell to make happen?


I've been chasing numbers for so long that I don't know the answer to that anymore. At one point I wanted to make a webcomic - at another, a game - but the burning passion I had to make both of those things once before has faded. What remains is a tiny ember. Sometimes I think about it - but I no longer find myself idly doodling my original creations like I once did.


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This is Cirri - my PFP here on Newgrounds, as well as the subject of many of my drawings pre-2021. I made this drawing shortly after having a mental breakdown, and y'know, it probably shows. The anatomy is fucking weird, it's not a very clean drawing at all, plenty of errors. But this is probably the first drawing I've made in months that I like... and it's because it wasn't made with anyone else's desires in mind. This wasn't made to pander to anyone, this wasn't made for twitter likes or for money, I drew this just because I felt like drawing Cirri. I used to draw her all the time before 2021, and you can even see that if you check my art by year on Newgrounds. But when 2021 rolled around, I made an animation for the FNF animation jam that got 20 million views, and it was alllll downhill from there when it came to my artistic integrity. Since then, it's all been scheming to see what's popular, what will get me views, how I can put in the minimum effort for the maximum results - but never again was it ever been about making something the best it can be, because I want to.


In a way, Cirri represents my artistic integrity, and that's why she faded away from my drawings when I got a mere taste of popularity. It's not like art depicting her didn't get good reception - she's an attractive hourglass girl after all- but it probably wasn't ENOUGH likes compared to meme garbage or popular established characters, and so I stopped, even though I love drawing her.


Well, now we're in 2023. I haven't improved too much as an artist. My sub count has improved... somewhat, I guess? But does it fucking matter? What GOOD is a sub count other than a fancy number to brag about? I just want to be happy and make something I'm proud of, and if I'm lucky, live off of what makes me happy.


I went into the whole Youtube thing with the idea that "I can make money doing what I love, and never have to work a normal job in my life!", but I couldn't be more wrong. At this point of my life, I'm on my hands and knees begging for a minimum wage part-time job, because at least then I could spend my free time making what I genuinely want to make instead of slaving away making soulless garbage on Youtube Shorts for less than minimum wage - for an audience that doesn't care about me or the quality of what I make.


I appreciate this website because I feel like it's given me some sort of direction. I still don't have a definite answer as to what I want to do with my life or what I want to make, but when I see how much love goes into the projects here, it gives me a warm feeling. So I guess that's a starting point.



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Posted by Ducksen - August 5th, 2022


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I wanna buy groceries and shit, so yeah, commissions are open. Hit me up here, discord, wherever, and we can discuss stuff.



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Posted by Ducksen - June 6th, 2022


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Decided to lock in a few dates for animations i'll be dropping, the FNF animation will happen only if I like one of the songs from the new update. Also, I'm obviously not going to be posting the commentary videos on Newgrounds.


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Posted by Ducksen - March 5th, 2022


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These drawings aren't the usual quality of the artwork I'd like to post on Newgrounds, so I thought I'd dump them in a news post instead. I'm really happy with how the stream came out! If you wanna come hang out next time and maybe make some requests, I'll be live at https://www.youtube.com/c/Ducksen/videos every Friday at around 6PM PST/9PM EST!


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Posted by Ducksen - January 10th, 2022


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so yeah, that's how i spent my year. this year i want to improve big time. actually learn how to do anatomy and shit. shade better. all that stuff. and for the love of god, i need to make less FNF stuff, it was 50% of my art last year.


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Posted by Ducksen - October 31st, 2021


OH YEAH IT'S FINALLY HERE CHECK IT OUT


but now i don't know what to do after this

not sure what i should animate

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maybe something not FNF related? lol


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Posted by Ducksen - September 17th, 2021


Fuckin' love this site and I just want to see it grow and make content for it, and yet here I am with nothing prepared for madness day or the summer animation jam!! DAHHHHHH!!!


I don't got a long sappy post to make about this, just know I'm not just going to be someone who makes Friday Night Funkin' content. Once I'm done with my next animation, I want to participate in EVERY animation jam and event I possibly can. My endgame will be to make my own original series, but I don't think I'm ready for that quite yet.


Anyway, Lemon Mishap 2 October 31st. Hope you all enjoy it once that's out. Hope you haven't forgotten about me!!!! I know I don't post very often, but I swear I'm here every day...


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Posted by Ducksen - March 19th, 2021


Hi! You may have just followed me from my submission to the Friday Night Funkin' animation jam. I cannot express how thankful I am to you all for the positive reception, I feel right at home here at Newgrounds despite being a newbie.


I plan on making another animation in the near future for Carol Roll. Then an animation on October 1st to celebrate the 1 year anniversary of Steve in Smash.


That's all. Have a good day!


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